This year is a little new for me as an artist/poet/creator. So I’ve realized that I have always been a highly creative/crafty person, but I hide it. Like I would literally do the following: write a poem, a song, a movie scene, design an outfit, etc And hide it. I’d look over it and secretly admire it always..they were my babies..my beautiful creations, but I wouldn’t dare go and share them or parade them to anyone. I was always my own harshest critic and although I knew I was talented I still kept them to myself. I decided, that in order to accomplish the things that I want to accomplish i have to trust in myself. My calling is for me & I cant hide my gifts if I want to use them!

I’m an empath, so I know many of you feel the same way..almost like you have to hide who you are so that others will accept you. And idk what age it happens..where you feel like you don’t fit in or aren’t accepted, but you start to burry yourself deeper and deeper until you’re basically.. a robot..something’s controlling your body while you’re hidden away in a depressed like stage. The robot(ego) is keeping you alive..although you’re not living. It’s keeping you fed sometimes too much (overeating) or turns your desire for food off.. it try’s to mimic your natural abilities like sensing danger, but it only keeps you in a state of fear trying to predict the worst next scenario. The ego likes to keep you from trying to succeed so it will whisper things like “you will fail” & you end up not even trying! Some of us live through our egos without even realizing…we feel our egos are our reality & who we are, but really we’re so much more. We are one with Spirit & we can achieve our highest callings. This is your sign!!! #wakeup

A simple thank you to the people that have entered my life. You’ve all made an impact. From my kinder childhood teachers to my daughter and everyone in between. I have a great memory and i remember the people who’ve come and helped me become the person that I am today. I truly have had a great life and my only regret is that I didn’t live in the moment as much as I should have. You have all passed the mission of helping me grow and flourish into the weirdo that I am today. I’ve always felt and knew that I wasn’t “normal” (whatever that means) & have always been okay with that. Although I may present myself as “normal”, im really quite different than most. Unlike most, I have never been afraid of standing out or standing alone. It comes quite naturally for me. I’m natural introverted..I believe in love without discrimination.
sometimes quiet, shy, or reserved. But if you ever get to know me like I know me you’d see how amazing and intelligent I am. You’d see how loving and caring and compassionate I am just to name a few. I feel like I’m full of love and light just waiting to be shared w/ like minded individuals. I never get too caught up in the world of material possessions and worldly problems and never have. Some call it nonchalant but really I just try not to stress over things I know don’t matter. I feel that’s a quality that I’ve somewhat mastered here w my time on earth. I have a few more missions left to pass before my time here is up and I truly do believe that I’m on the right path. I send love light peace and good vibes your way. And hope that you continue to follow your heart and the right path so that you complete all of your missions to the best of your ability. Know that you are a divine being and always listen to the little voice deep down that keeps you from the wrong path. Know that you are worthy of all things good and beautiful & Open your mind to source. Don’t think too much. The right choice should come naturally. And if it doesn’t give it some time. Remember that nothing really belongs to you..everything is temporary & the only thing that remains constant is change. Remember that time does not really exist..take away time/clocks & you have a balance of darkness & light. Remember to not believe everything that you hear and only believe some of what you see. Love more. Enjoy nature. Connect w/ source( higher self) look within. Meditate. Pray. Believe. Send out good vibes. Believe. The universe will reward you.

+Love Jaiyacee